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Solace in a Soup Pot

You wish to plumb the depths of a soul who finds his solace in the steam of a soup kettle when the rest of the world has packed up its tinsel and gone home? A fine subject, and a telling one. Pull up a chair, and I’ll give you the lay of it.

Now, the day after Christmas is a peculiar kind of purgatory in this republic of ours. It is a landscape of discarded ribbon, a quiet haunted by the ghost of yesterday’s jollity. The charitable impulse, which runs as hot and shallow as a flash flood in December, has receded, leaving the familiar banks of human indifference exposed once more.

But in the basement of the First Methodist Church—a place that smells perpetually of stale sweat and onions—you would find David. David is a man of middling years, with a face that speaks less of joy or sorrow than of calm utility. While the other volunteers—good souls, mind you, but of the seasonal variety—had clapped him on the back yesterday with a “Merry Christmas, David! See you next year!”, he was back at his post today, tying on the same faded apron as if it were a Tuesday. Which it was.

For you see, the world makes a grand error in its understanding of duty. It conceives of it as a bitter pill; a stone one must carry in his shoe for a prescribed distance. For David, duty was the very shoe itself. It was the thing that kept him upright and moving.

He enjoyed the stark, unadorned truth of the soup kitchen the day after Christmas. The tinsel was gone, the forced carols had ceased, and what was left was the simple, unvarnished arithmetic of need. Here was a man with a cough that rattled like stones in a tin can. There, a woman trying to cut a roll with fingers blue from the cold. There were no cameras, no politicians making a show of ladling gravy. It was just David, the steam, and the quiet act of handing a bowl of something hot to another human being.

A young man, flush with the fleeting zeal of yesterday, had asked him once, “Doesn’t it get you down, David? Day after day, the same hard-luck cases?”

David had paused in his scrubbing of a great iron pot. “Son,” he said, “the calendar is a fiction agreed upon by men who sell stationery. Hunger ain’t a holiday. It works a seven-day week, twelve months a year. I find I keep the same schedule.”

He was not, you understand, a saint. Saints are tiresome, ethereal creatures, and David was built of sterner, earthier stuff. He had his own ghosts, his own private December that had settled in his bones long ago. This was not about saving souls, his or anyone else’s. It was about the tangible. A clean spoon. A bowl wiped dry. The precise moment a potato went from hard to tender.

It was a kind of conversation, this work, but one that required no lies or platitudes. The exchange was simple: Here is a measure of warmth. Here is a moment of peace. There is no debt. No one here was saved, least of all David. But for a few hours, in the humming quiet of the kitchen, they were all, in their own way, sustained.

The poet, I am told, looks at a pot and sees a vessel for beauty. David looked at a pot and saw it for what it was: a thing made to hold something that could fill an empty belly. And in a world cluttered with tinsel and noise, he had concluded there was no more honest or noble purpose.

So let the world outside box up its generosity until next December. David would be here, listening to the true music of the season—the clang of a ladle on a pot’s rim, a simple, solid sound that echoed long after the last carol had faded. It was the sound of a man who had found his post, and who knew, with a certainty that required no applause, that he was exactly where he ought to be.

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